"I don't feel very 'Missionary-ish'," I recently confided to a friend. "We just don't fit the profile."
"And what was the profile SIM gave you at your missionary orientation?" she asked.
I had to laugh. She made a good point. God doesn't make profiles..that's a human characteristic.
My original profile of what a missionary is looks something like this:
* Reads the Bible daily and knows more about it than the average pastor
* Never watches TV, unless it's a documentary on a foreign country
* Leads a totally self-sacrificing life
* Happily lives in and among abject poverty, in bug and reptile infested locations
* Can address any questions raised with regard to the Christian faith
* Always remembers to send thank you notes
Do you have a similar view? Well, if you do then you can relate.
To be perfectly honest, we don't fit this profile. Not even close. We typically don't miss church mainly because I teach Sunday school, but small group meetings and Bible studies frequently take a back seat to the demands of work. We try to read the Bible every day. Jeff's better at this than I am, but I'm more apt to not read for a week, then spend a big chunk of time reading and researching a passage (note the "lamb of God" blog...). TV..hmmm...I'm not even going to go there. It would shock you too much to know the amount of time we spend in front of the idiot box. Self-sacrificing? Not hardly. We all hate spiders and snakes. (We're pretty vocal about it, too!) I'm very attached to air-conditioning and food without meal worms. Apologetics? I get defensive. After all, how DARE someone question the truth????? I've never been very good at debate and can usually think of the perfect thing to say about a day or two after the actual conversation, when I've had time to rethink the exchange 450 times.
So, why did God call us to become missionaries? Why did he call Gideon, a young farmer, to lead an army to deliver Isreal? Judges 6:15 shows Gideon had this same question.
And he said to him, "Pray, Lord, how can I deliver Israel? Behold, my clan is the weakest in Manas'seh, and I am the least in my family."
Gideon questioned God, "Why me?" But once God calmed his fears that this call wasn't in his head, and actually came from the Almighty, Gideon simply did as he was asked. He trusted that God knew what He was doing when He whittled the army down to 300 people, even though that flew in the face of logic. God wanted to make sure that everyone knew it was by His power that Isreal was delivered.God often uses the least likely people to accomplish great things. That way, there's no doubt that God is behind it. So, even though we may not be the cream of the crop being sent into the world, like Paul and Barnabas were, we are willing to go and do whatever He's got for us to do. Make no mistake that whatever good comes from our adventure in Africa, it's all God's doing.
We think maybe God is using us to show others that they don't have to fit a profile of the "perfect Christian" to be used in mighty ways. He's just looking for imperfect people to say "Yes, God. Use me."